Who do you lean to?

Throughout my life, I've met and lost many people, friends, acquaintances. Some, I build strong friendships with, others, I create and strive for the unbreakable love. Yet, no matter how hard I try, one way or another, I lose a part of me as this person leaves my side. Whether it be by distance or just making mistakes as I do, I find it hard to always forget. Me, a person able to tell you how our first day was, at the Bio Table in Mrs. Thors class or that one memorable day of nervous history class. This is a habit of mine, a way of life of mine. I hold onto who I find to be of the greatest meaning to me. Why have a million friends when you can have 10 of the greatest people on earth? I'm easy to talk to, my large pupils is the reason says a certain friend of mine (lol). Possibly the coolest asian you'll ever meet! hahah but really, I'm just another guy, getting through life with dumb mistakes and even worse, mistakes that hurt those I care about the most.

As I work through this world, I find pain, love being the anesthetic. Love of a girl, love of a friend, love of a family, someone whom you can lean on and depend on. Pain is the reason why I keep wondering and love is the answer to my wondering. So who do I lean on when the pain has become so great, possibly to make me want to quit out on what I call as life?
I lean to My family, My cousin Minh, Maria Maiya, Christian, Kyle, Kayla, Laura. If you weren't named, there is a reason, not because I don't value you, its because you are a special type of category, the category I call "Bits of Joy"!

These people are like the small candy pieces you get during Halloween. Mini Snickers, Smarties, Hersheys, and all the other great sugary delights! Who are in this category? New College friends, thats for sure. The new indoor soccer friends, History, the one girl next to me who keeps me from banging my head in IT (a reason why I started this blog page), people who I don't know your names who play table tennis in the Rec Center, Astronomy and people who randomly decide to talk to me for odd reasons...hahha but yea, you guys and dudettes make up quite a large portion of my day!

So this is why for my first post, I dedicate this to all my friends, without friends, I'd be in one shit hole hahah
my heart goes out to y'all